I was thinking the other day about what I would give to have never had Psoriasis in my life. At the time I was watching Doctor Who and it made me think of going back in time and changing my timeline. Is having Psoriasis one of those points in time that I cannot change, that would always happen no matter what I did? Or is it possible to go into the future, find a cure or vaccine, bring it back and stop my younger self ever getting it at all?
There is a slight problem that I am neither a Time Lord nor do I own a Tardis, well not a real one. At least I don’t think the one on my key ring counts. Anyway, it got me to thinking, would I really want to change things? It is one of those deep philosophical questions one asks themselves from time to time and in true Simon fashion I went down the Doctor Who route rather than anything deep and meaningful.
If I seriously ask myself the question then the answer is “I don’t know”. Psoriasis has taken me on journey not just to new places, it has taken me on a journey through my soul. I have gone from slightly irritated by it, to annoyed, angry, depressed, denial (a river in Egypt). See I just can’t stay serious about it no matter how hard I try.
What I do know is that Psoriasis has taken me to places I never thought I would go. I have been to Parliament for the launch of an awareness campaign. Psoriasis has had me chauffeured around Dublin and invited me to various companies to discuss and share experiences. Without Psoriasis I would have done none of this.
Psoriasis has introduced me to new people, some of which are now very good friends. It has made me part of a global community. Something very alien to a person who in the past has never had a large circle of friends and was always so keen on his own company above others.
Psoriasis has had me on the radio, on tv, I have been interviewed numerous times and even called upon to consult,and soon what will be my third professional photo shoot. I have even part written a book with my wife and some of my psoriasis friends. My life, no matter how much I want to have psoriasis out of it, is very much because of psoriasis. It is one of those strange situations where I find myself being grateful for psoriasis. I would not be the person I am today without it. I would have been someone else (see my last post).
The journey will continue and, unless there is a cure, it will continue to take me to new places, beyond civilisation, to boldly go…….. oh hold on, that’s Star Trek. I get to steer every now and then too, see psoriasis isn’t all bad. Psoriasis just needs a bit of guidance, a bit like an unruly teen or a poorly trained dog.
There is something else though, others are on this journey with me which makes travelling with psoriasis much easier. My wife, my family, friends, healthcare professionals, pharma companies and those who work every day to support and raise awareness and don’t forget Bob the Cat. They have all decided to come along with me so I don’t let Psoriasis take the lead too often and to make it fun.
So Psoriasis, here’s a surprise for you, thank you, sincerely from the heart of my bottom. (Yep, definitely can’t stay serious.)