With psoriasis it is very easy to get bogged down with depressing and negative thoughts. Restless nights, constant fatigue, sore skin, anxiety and embarrassment are all common with psoriasis patients so it easy to see why psoriasis patients do not always have the most positive outlook on life. A few people have commented to me recently that I have changed this year, the negativity is mostly gone and I appear happier. This hasn’t only been following treatment to give me clear skin (for a short while), it has been a determined mental change in my attitude.
Getting down, fed up and depressed about my condition was making me, well, it was making me fed up and depressed. I also know that how I feel and act affects those around me. There have been factors that have helped, the arrival of Bob the cat last year and my decision to leave a stressful job have also had an impact. I do think that if I had not made changes to work and to my attitude towards psoriasis that I may have soon been back on the precipice looking down into the darkness of depression.
One of the ways of fighting psoriasis, I discovered this year, is to find a positive out of every situation where psoriasis attacks. Recently I went to the work’s Christmas party. It was in a great venue, we had an excellent hotel laid on for us to stay and I was really looking forward to the night. Being Christmas, everywhere was busy and the venue soon became very warm, especially for someone with psoriasis. I could feel my skin starting to crawl, then the itching started and I felt like I just needed to escape. When I get uncomfortable like this, I become very self aware of how much I’m fighting and scratching and so the anxiety sets in. The only way I find to stop this is to leave, which is what I did, with a little bit of guilt about leaving my colleagues so early. I got back to the hotel feeling angry with myself and after cooling down and putting on some cream I started to relax again and felt a lot better.
So my Christmas party was cut short and psoriasis looks on laughing, thinking it has won. Let me tell you , Psoriasis, you didn’t win. My wife and I had big plans for the next day, shopping in London followed by dinner and a show. The only problem was, we had left the tickets for the show at home. So here’s looking to the positive. At 5am in the hotel when my wife, unable to sleep, suddenly realised the tickets were at home I was of sound mind and not hungover to check the internet to see if we could get replacements. The answer was no. Luckily we were staying close to the station and my bright clear head, but tired body, was able to jump on a train and head back home to get the tickets before breakfast at the hotel. If anything, psoriasis actually helped me. If it hadn’t been for that mini flare up I may have not been in any state to make that mad dash home and back which would have made a big change to our plans. So thank you psoriasis, I’m not sure how you knew we’d forgotten the ticket.
With Christmas so close it is important to me to stay in a positive mood and I hope this little tip helps other patients. Just remember, even when psoriasis looks to be winning, you can turn it around. Happy Christmas all and I wish you a healthy and itch free New Year.