I am sat in the office. The psoriasis on my foot for some reason today is particularly itchy and it’s bloody annoying. I have undone my shoe, removed my sock and got some air to it, okay I had a sneaky scratch as well but it’s still really really itchy (yes 2 reallys) and all I want to do is go home. Well maybe just any excuse to leave work early. There is another reason though and it’s that I can feel my patience wearing thin, very thin.
I do find that I have less patience than I used to. When I was much younger, and long before I had psoriasis, I was one of those people that others said “if I was any more laid back, my head would touch the floor”. That isn’t true anymore. I get annoyed at the slightest things and people. People, damn people and the stupid things they say. Yes you can guess I am annoyed right now with someone and I did have a bit of a go at them and have in the last few minutes calmed the situation with a joke. The only thing is that I am still bubbling under the surface and what they said wasn’t really that important or worth worrying about, it wasn’t even somethign connected to psoriasis, so why am I so annoyed?
Psoriasis is a pain in the backside, it itches, it annoys and that makes you ratty. Also for the last ten years, or however long it is now I’ve had this condition, I have had to learn to move from negativity to a positive outlook. So when someone just puts up barriers, is negative and dismissive it really frigging annoys me. (I do hope you like my replacement of the swear words I feel like using).
I asked a simple question to someone that isn’t a manager, isn’t the decision maker and certainly cannot answer on the behalf of the company in question. Their response was can’t do that, they won’t allow it, along with a few other reasons why it couldn’t be done. Just go and ask them was my response in a raised and annoyed tone.
The person has now gone and done this as I think partly they knew if they didn’t go and ask, I would just go above their head and that I gave that tone that says, “you will do as I ask and I am not discussing this any further”. Now the question has been asked, we have our answer and as it turns out, the person who said it can’t be done was correct. I have duly thanked them for at least trying which is all I wanted.
Why mention this? To get it out of my system a little and it has reminded me of some psoriasis sufferers I have spoken to have an attitude of “nothing can be done” and they sit there dwelling with this condition. And here I put my hand up to say, I used to be one of those. I know it’s difficult to drag yourself out of the hole that psoriasis digs for you. The only advice I can give is what most have heard a thousand times, take a deep breath, pull yourself together and fight it, give psoriasis a good kicking and tell it you will beat it. If you think negatively, you’ve already lost.
You may wonder do I feel better for writing this down. Well, in a way yes, but now I’m picking at other things and pointing out our failing as to why what I want done, can’t be done. I’m not just moaning about it though, I have put forward suggestions of how we can avoid this in the future. See, a positive outlook. So maybe we should think this about psoriasis, okay it’s annoying but let’s see what we (sufferers, friends, family, medical practitioners, pharmaceutical companies) can do to prevent it happening or at least making it better.